I was not able to get to your letter in time. Unfortunately, I do not have a scribe, even though I am very busy as a poet, writer, and professor.

Do you really love literature? Are you familiar with my writing? I do not know. In your letter I have not come across any sign that you have read me. Yet, you are a high school student and you live in Antalya. In other words, you are living the life I lived from 1916 to 1918. That is why I am writing to you. The town you find yourself in, perhaps where you were born, holds an important place in my life. Looking at that sea on your beaches, watching those southern waves, wandering the fruit gardens that until now have yielded little fruit, slowly I became a dreamer.

You can find my life story in any anthology. I was born in 1901. My father was a judge. I spent most of my childhood in the places in Anatolia where he was appointed. In between these appointments, we stayed in Istanbul. One day in the Ergani mines, when I was three, I found myself. It was a snowy day. I was looking at a slope covered in snow through a hot and foggy glass. Then, suddenly, it began to snow again. I entered a kind of delicious awe. Every snowy day, I recall this moment and await the snowfall. After Ergani we went to Sinop (1908–10). There I became friends with the sea. The greatest pleasure of my childhood was playing on the shores of the sea that surrounded both sides of that city, founded on an isthmus. On the Tophane side (the main trading port) there was a shipbuilding yard that belonged to a master named Delibaş. I was seven or eight years old when I joined the volunteer workers there. But mostly I enjoyed watching the arrival of the waves from the large sands behind the shipyard. They used to call this place Yazı, I suppose, and it had two fortress ruins buried in the sand that piqued my imagination more than the Sinop Fortress. Later, I would learn how much this place resembled Şile and Kilyos. Nothing can be as beautiful as a line of waves arriving on a sandy beach, one after the other.

In Siirt, I got to know the loneliness that descends upon the distant mountains in the evening hours and the starry nights that followed. In this land of hot summers, we used to sleep on the roof. The starry nights would enchant me. Eternity would fill my body and soul in waves. Like a Sumerian priest, my imagination was always busy with stars. I swam in their mystery. Add to this that crushing purple, that terrible loneliness which the distant mountains would take on in the evening.

In Kirkuk, we would again sleep on the roof (1913–14). Night and stars once again. I was thirteen when we came to this city we have since lost.Footnote ¹ We stayed in three houses. All three had large gardens.

I came to Antalya in the fall of 1916. I had grown quite a lot. I was allowed to wander at night by the sea or the cliffs at Hastahanebaşı by myself. I would stay there until nightfall when the shadows of the rocks would begin to scare me. Two views of the sea used to drive me wild. One was the view that these rocks created on their sea-facing side along with the stones and the seaweed at the bottom of the sea during the morning and evening hours, in the light of the calm sea. Something else that made me happy was the way the water filled and emptied the cavities of rocks during calm hours. And the dilation of the water, like a diamond pool, under the noon sun. These had great meaning for my imagination.

This is a state I can only call enchantment. But perhaps that too is not enough; truth is, it had the effect on me of a mystery I just could not make out, a lesson belonging to a time yet to come.

In the year 1921, when I returned to Antalya for vacation, in between two houses on the way to Hastahane, I again came across this water, which had once more united with the sun and had become the sun's palace and its pool. The view was simply spectacular. But this beauty reached me amid a strange thought of death. Nothing could be so close to a person, and, despite it, so crushing and detached. This was the year I dedicated myself to poetry. I had read many poets. I knew Yahya Kemal, I knew Haşim. I believe that that day, I saw an instance of my own poetry outside myself. Did I really understand it? A person can find oneself only when one sheds away the small trifles of one's life, or else when one gives them a mental form. Our luck is within ourselves, in a well-hidden place. But in order to reach it, we need to get rid of many things. This happened very late for me. In 1921, I was not yet at that age. I could not dwell on anything outside language. In the same days, again in our common land, I came across another view of the sea. I saw the sea cave called Güvercinlik. This cave, whose brightness flickered with every rush of water, became a thing of consequence for me. As I said, I was not at a level to turn what I saw into a little discovery. However, the basis of my aesthetics, the idea of the dream, is connected in some measure to this cave.

There is a mention of Antalya in my novel A Mind at Peace. The rocks at Hastahanebaşı, the dovecote, and the sea, knit together, so to speak, the inner life of Mümtaz. But it is essential to read carefully to find the secret knots. The Istanbul sea and the Bosporus nights again overlap with these years. My dream world is constituted primarily by what I say of the sea—leaving aside the starry nights of my childhood and mountains, which symbolize human desolation and helplessness. I would say that this is the algebra of my poetry. I arrived at the starry night and the sea from the sense of loneliness that the mountain awakens in us. The sea talks to us constantly. Despite this, a sense of loneliness has not left me. Naturally, I had to start my life in a sea town like Istanbul in order to see such views in this way. In poetry and in thought, the teacher who I first had, and perhaps whose face I saw last, was Yahya Kemal. Before him, I had read and liked Haşim. These two poets made me forget those who came before them. From Yahya Kemal's lectures—he was my professor at the university—I had the taste of old poetry. I learned Galib, Nedim, Bâki, and Nailî from him and I loved them.

Yahya Kemal influenced me mainly through the idea of perfection in his poetry and the beauty of language. He was the one who opened the door of language for us. Others view this influence in a different light. In reality, our aesthetics are different. I will explain this below. However, this great man had almost absolute influence over my ideas about nationhood and history. My book Five Cities follows the path of his ideas. It was even dedicated to him. Both times, this book was not published in the same place as I was, and I was not able to include this dedication.

My main influences are from French poetry, and its Baudelaire-Mallarmé-Valéry branch. But this line is not complete either. It is necessary to acknowledge the contributions of an important French poet named Gérard de Nerval, [E. T. A.] Hoffman and Edgar Allan Poe, Goethe with his Faust, Dede Efendi, Mozart and Beethoven, Bach, the French and Italian painters I like, and some moderns. Finally add to these my favorite novelist, Marcel Proust.

My actual aesthetic took shape after getting to know Valéry in the years 1928 to 1930. This aesthetic or understanding of poetry can be organized around the word dream and the ideas of conscious work. Or, music and dreams. Change Valéry's sentence “the best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up” to “the construction of the dream state in language through waking effort and work,” and you will get my understanding of poetry.

You can find this understanding of poetry in the first and last poems of my Poems.

The poem “I Am Neither inside Time” communicates a state of poetry, the union of the cosmos with a person, which itself is a state of watchful meditation and dreaming. As you see, it has nothing to do with the coincidences and oddities of actual dreams. Besides, in my view of poetry, what matters more than the dream itself is the inner feeling that accompanies the dream. The principal thing is this feeling. Music enters into the picture here. Because this feeling resembles the sensation that music awakens in music lovers as long as they are not professionals. I would describe this as entering a time different from the one we live in. A time that has a different kind of rhythm, one that internally merges with space and things.Footnote ²

“Night at the Bosporus,” the second poem, narrates the construction of the world of a poem [şiirin örgüsü]. The only tangible thing in this poem is a single cloud. This cloud changes with the evening, becomes an arc and dies, its screams blaze in windows, but a little later it returns as a star and swims in the waters of Bosporus. Thus, it tells the story of building an atmosphere around a cloud, an object. Here too there is a semblance of music. Music changes constantly. By changing, it constructs its world inside us.

Aside from all this remains the structure of the poem [şiirin yapısı], or the work that will deliver us to its structure. Poetry is, for me, a matter of form. And form, above all, is a matter of kneading language with meter and rhyme. Slowly, meter and rhyme and other rules of poetry become a technique of our own. First through our voices, then through our selves and inner lives, experiences find their way into language. If I have spoken a lot about sound, it is because we humans are sound. The point for the poet is to turn language into sound itself, or to make it sound like oneself. If we achieve this, what we call a line will take shape. Sometimes, in poems with tight meters, it is not the line itself that serves this function but couplets or stanzas. Mallarmé, whom I admire, would describe a line of poetry as “a single word that is composed of a great particular surge of many other words.” Valéry says that a poet's ear should always be alert, which amounts to the same thing. The ear, coming between the poem and our world of sentiments, saves us from being captive to our emotions. In my opinion, the most important and the most difficult issue in poetry involves the cooperation between the poet and his ear. I would say your ear should be in charge. Only in this way will verse become melody [nağme]. Entering our world of emotions through poetry prevents us from being held captive to them and puts the work back in our hands. It allows us to shape the clay of language as necessary. If you write poetry, try to look outside at language and at your inner world, as you would a statue.

Bergson's concept of time plays an important role in my understanding of poetry and art. I did not read much of him, but I owe him a great deal. Around 1932, I read a good amount of Schopenhauer and Nietzsche. The subject of dreams led me to Freud and the psychoanalysts.

You might ask why someone who thinks about poetry in this way and who, in the end, separates it from the person, should write novels. I would answer that poetry is more about silence than speech. My novels and stories say what I am silent about in my poetry. For that reason, my novels and stories provide the main outlines to my poems, which I want to be closed-off worlds, to the extent they can be. That said, my understanding of the novel does not stray much from my understanding of poetry. What I said about the word dream, and even the order of dreams, also holds when it comes to novels. The difference is that I am searching for myself in poetry, whereas in my stories and novels, I am searching for life and for others. Or the time of others. In my works The Dreams of Abdullah Efendi and A Mind at Peace, there are places where these two branches of my art—if such a thing exists—coincide.

Now you know my ideas about art. What have you gained? That I cannot tell.

As for myself . . . a person is not that important. I am like everyone else.

In a way, it is as if I sent this letter to my own childhood. I do not know if your high school is still in the old building in Anbarlı. I imagined you there as I wrote this. You have reminded me of the young man I once was. I relived my excitement and surprise, and I thank you for this. I send my regards to your friends and teachers, and I wish you success. I am grateful for your interest in me. Be happy and work hard, my dear child.