Wednesday 16 September
During this Session I have become intimate with some persons of whom I knew comparatively little before. The DunravensFootnote 1 I have seen constantly and a great intimacy has from peculiar causes grown up there.
I spent several days with Sir E. B. Lytton,Footnote 2 with whom I found many points in common. He has been very agreeable and I have known him better than I expected. StanleyFootnote 3 sought me out – for his character is so peculiar that I have always feared to be the first to make advances – this summer in London to propose various plans of foreign travel together. These, from the divorce bill,Footnote 4 the lateness of the Session and other reasons, fell through: but he subsequently paid me a visit of several days at Highclere, where I learnt to know more of him than any former occasion permitted.
Many old friends have married this year – Robert Cecil, Lothian, Shaw Stewart, H. Jenkinson, Egerton etc, but others such as Lygon and SandonFootnote 5 I have often seen from their now being in Parliament. This concentration of those for whom I have a real affection has been a great source of pleasure during my London life [. . .]. If I live to the close of another 12 months, the comparison of that year with the past will be interesting and I hope useful to me.
When I review the last six or seven months as a whole and compare them with my first Session of Parliament in 1854 I do not think I am mistaken in supposing that I have made an advance. How far I am myself capable of doing more than I was able to do is another question: but even there I think there has been considerable progress and certainly greater self-confidence, the absolute condition to success in life. I have acquired valent quantum – a certain position in the House of Lords and generally, and though now exiled from all chance of office by adherence to a broken and mastless party I am expected, as I cannot avoid knowing, to succeed eventually; and this is no mean auxiliary to success. For myself I scarcely know whether to wish for success or not.
