Thinking and Writing about Queer Musicking Bodies

At the centre of this article are queer male musicians in a string ensemble, or khrueang saai, of Thai classical music, especially those whose gender performances are deemed “effeminate”. Queer male musicians are not an uncommon sight among Thai classical music practitioners, being active participants in a diverse range of music events, ranging from competitions to waikhruu or the teacher-honouring ritual. A string ensemble (see figure 1), featuring Thai fiddles (sau duang and sau uu) and the floor zither (jakhee), is well recognised among Thai classical practitioners as being heavily and visibly populated by queer musicians more than any other ensemble in this tradition. The queer symbolism of a string ensemble is perhaps most emphasised in the floor zither or jakhee. There is even a running joke among Thai musicians that the instrument is cursed to strip off the player's masculinity (jakhee duut winyaan khwaam pen chaai). Queer male musicians who participate in string ensembles are thus referred to playfully, though by straight musicians, as khrueang saai chaai suay, literally translated as “string music, pretty men”. Despite their ubiquitous presence in and contribution to Thai classical music, their identities have rarely been considered a topic of serious discussion.

Figure 1.

Vijitvatin, a group of khrueang saai musicians during a rehearsal in September 2020. Instruments from left to right: sau duang (higher-pitched fiddle), khlui phiang au (middle-pitched flute), jakhee (floor zither), singer, ching (hand cymbals), khim (dulcimer), jakhee, khlui lip (higher-pitched flute), sau uu (lower-pitched fiddle) and thon-rammanaa (a pair of handheld drums). Photo by the author.

While it can be argued that, like other realms in Thai culture, queerness is tolerated but not accepted in Thai classical music, it would be a mistake to quickly presume that queer invisibility is a corollary of the hegemonic heteronormative discourse. Carlos Ulises Decena warns about the premature judgement of gay Dominican immigrants in New York based on their investment in normative masculinity as simply a denial or failure. He argues that “some queers of color have an uneasy relationship with the closet because they resist the depoliticized ‘liberation’ that coming out promises, which currently resides in a gay identity as a sociocultural formation and as a niche [neoliberal] market” (Decena Reference Decena2011: 6, 18–19). Decena proposes the idea of tacit subjects to get at various complicities that structure social relations and to remind us that coming out is always partial and that the closet is a constantly negotiated social formation (Decena Reference Decena2011: 38). “Keeping condition” similarly challenges the clearcut line separating closet and coming out. My theorisation of “keeping condition” borrows heavily from tacit subjects to approach queer male musicians’ gender nonconformity as “something present yet not remarked upon, something understood yet not stated, something intuited yet uncertain, something known yet not broached by either person in a given exchange” (Decena Reference Decena2011: 31). However, “keeping condition” takes the idea of queerness as understood but not spoken to a different axis of intersectionality, one that involves social status, morality, musicianship, and citizenship.

Balancing social surveillance and queer recognition is indeed a poietic act. Queer male musicians navigate and carefully curate their fluid identities to be appropriate to a specific place and time. According to Peter Jackson, these spatial-temporal contextual sensitivities, known as kaala theesa in Thai, may be considered a modality of power through which the multiplicity of gendered cultures are managed in Thailand (Jackson Reference Jackson2020: 5). Drawing on Penny Van Esterik's (Reference Van Esterik2020: 61) theorisation of kaala theesa as a time-place contextualising factor that shapes multiple gender norms and differently structured gendered contexts in daily lives, Jackson notes that the Thai cultural strategy of contextualisation has “historically tolerated and indeed encouraged a proliferation of distinct social and cultural settings, each with its own norms of speech, dress, behaviour, and bodily comportment” (Jackson Reference Jackson2020: 24). These ideas thus form a theoretical throughline as I examine the queer musicking bodies in question. Queer male musicians thus demonstrate Decena's tacit subjects as they variously “keep condition” under the contextual sensitivity toward the multiplicity of gendered norms while balancing their social status and sexual citizenship.

The sense of queerness invoked by the presence of queer male musicians in the string ensemble cannot be fully understood without considering the gender roles underlying Thai classical music practices. The emphasis placed on gender expressions and performances, as well as the obscurity of sexual orientation as a discreet identity marker, are crucial in conceptualising non-/normativity in Southeast Asia (Jackson Reference Jackson2000; Morris Reference Morris1994; Peletz Reference Peletz2006; Sinnott Reference Sinnott2004). The ostensibly “queer” expressive cultures in this region are often marked by the spectacle of cross-gender performances. Notable here are what Michael Peletz refers to as transgender ritual specialists, male-bodied individuals who dress in female attire while performing certain rituals associated with royal regalia, births, weddings, and key phases of agricultural cycles (Peletz Reference Peletz2006: 312). Some works in this regard include nat kadaw in Burma and their transition into the beauty industry (Ho Reference Ho2009), bissu and their negotiation with Islamicisation and Modernity in Indonesia (Blackwood Reference Blackwood2005; Davies Reference Davies2007) and the spirit medium's attempt to cope with the modernising ethnoscape of Northern Thailand (Morris Reference Morris2000). Although practices of transvestism or transgenderism cannot be assumed to lead to an underlying homosexual “nature” (Blackwood Reference Blackwood2005: 850), they reflect the three-gender ontology—male, female and the “third gender” or those who engage in cross-gender practices—prevalent in pre-colonial Southeast Asia.

Like their cultic or ritualistic counterparts, non-normative performing arts in Southeast Asia are driven by a spectacle of complex relationships between maleness and femaleness. In the traditional dances of East Java in Indonesia, some female dancers deliberately embody male characters to map maleness’ physical strength onto female bodies and vice versa to harness female “magnetic power” of sexual appeal onto male bodies (Sunardi Reference Sunardi2015). Through the embodied process of dancing, these dancers not only push the conceptual and physical boundaries of gender but are also able to sidestep, using nonconforming gender performances on stage, any discussion regarding their sexual orientation (Mrázek Reference Mrázek2005; Spiller Reference Spiller2010; Sunardi Reference Sunardi2020). Cross-gender performances in Thailand can be observed in a few performing arts where boys or men take on female characters. Lakhaun nauk, an all-male traditional drama, is perhaps the only Thai classical performing art that is treated through the frameworks of queer studies. However, scholars dealing with lakhaun nauk tend to focus more on the historical evidence of male homosociality (Chanan Reference Yodhong2019; Chalalai and Vijjuta Reference Chalalai and Vijjuta2020) and associating male-to-female cross-genderism with possession of inherent artistic skills (Narupon Reference Duangwises and Duangwises2022: 148) than on the discussion that surrounds the dominant heteronormative culture. However, I am treading my thinking about gender-informed non-normative performances critically, noting the potential pitfall of simply valorising the third gender's disruptive potential and reinforcing the gender binary itself (Loos Reference Loos2020: 933). I draw on these works rather as a point of departure toward the unsettling relationship between queerness as an analytical perspective (Sinnott Reference Sinnott2012: 472) and the fluid, heterogeneous and constantly shifting notions of the third gender, particularly in Thailand.

Some Brief Overview on Gendered Practices in Thai Classical Music

As illustrated above, the presence and status of queer men in Thai classical string music are also deeply informed by the power relations between gender roles, i.e., masculinity and femininity. I will not dive into the musical and socio-cultural details of each ensemble in Thai classical music since these have been extensively discussed by several ethnomusicologists (Adler Reference Adler2014; Becker Reference Becker1980; Dusadee Reference Dusadee2003; Hood Reference Hood and Morton1975; Miller and Sam Reference Miller and Sam-ang1995; Morton Reference Morton and Morton1975, Reference Morton1976; Myers-Moro Reference Myers-Moro1993; Wong Reference Wong2001) but will instead emphasise the gender aspect that shapes conventional practices of this musical tradition. As a former court music and representative musical tradition of the nation, Thai classical music adheres to the same code of sexual and gender morals as practised by the ruling class people of Thailand. These values in turn form a system of power that controls gendered musical behaviours, often in a hierarchical manner (Koskoff Reference Koskoff2014: 22–27). For example, piiphaat, an ensemble that accompanies classical dances and is used in rituals, is considered masculine and played by men. With its historical evidence dating back to the seventeenth century, piiphaat (see figure 2) consists of xylophones (the ranaat), gongs (the khaung wong), a reed (pii), the drums (ta-phoon and klaung that) and a hand cymbal (ching). Piiphaat represents masculinity for its loud and penetrating tone colour, speed, high physical demands of mastering its instruments, and certain highly sacred musical pieces that are exclusively accessible by men.

Figure 2.

Piiphaat ensemble performs during a Buddhist ordination ceremony in April 2023. Note the relatively relaxed and spread-out postures of the musicians. Photo by the author.

String ensembles, or khrueang saai, are believed to have been historically present alongside piiphaat but differ greatly in their use and functions. Their uses are wholly secular, i.e., they play for entertainment, and the instruments have a much mellower tone colour. String ensembles were once reserved for male musicians until the emergence of court women musicians—trained by male teachers—in the 1920s. After the 1932 revolution, these women musicians became the authoritative representation of the string ensemble as they left the palaces and variously took up teaching jobs in schools and universities. Many of these women musicians continued teaching well into the 80s, and several of the renowned queer male musicians of today can trace their musical lineage to former court women musicians (see figure 3). Former court women musicians also appeared on television playing string instruments along with their male counterparts who, for the most part, were playing piiphaat instruments. This gradually gendered the string instrument as a woman's space. Such gendering reached its peak in the 90s when a hit television series Khuu Kam featured Angsumalin, the female protagonist, playing khim, a Thai dulcimer, and enchanting a Japanese soldier, Kobori, her eventual love interest, in the process.

Figure 3.

Musicians from the Government Public Relations Department perform for a television show, circa 1970. Chaluay Chiyachan (front row, right) plays the sau uu while Rati Wisetsurakan (on a raised platform) plays the jakhee. Chaluay and Rati are considered two of the most influential women string musicians. Their respective styles are now two major lineages among Thai string musicians today. Photo taken from Chaluay's commemorative funeral book.

The binary gendering of Thai classical music extends beyond musical practices to the musicians’ bodies. Musicking bodies, ones that come alive in the moment of musical performance, hold as much knowledge and reflect as much social value as the sonic elements (Rahaim Reference Rahaim2012). Gestures (bodily movement) and postures (bodily position) of musicians simultaneously reflect and inscribe the music's social etiquette, including that of gender practices. The bodies of piiphaat musicians are masculinised for their somewhat “spread-out” seating position: crossed-legged and with a wide range of movement, whereas the body of string musicians are characterised by the more feminine “tucked in” seating position called phapphiap: one leg folded inward and the other leg folded outward. The accented curvature of the string musician's torso also makes for a more “graceful” posture, much like that of a Thai classical dancer.

Queer male musicians, particularly those who appear feminine, are attracted to the string ensemble because of the shared values of femininity. The string instruments provide a “fleeting queer space” (Klotz Reference Klotz2021: 15) that unsettles the gender norms assigned to both the instruments and the musicking bodies. These string musicians cross the established gender boundary by embodying the refined postures characteristic of an idealised woman: elegant, graceful gestures and reserved. Furthermore, they articulate these feminine characters through subtle musical gestures, including tilting the chin, flexing the fingertips and overbending the torso. Regarding this feminine articulation of queer male string musicians, Mark, a seasoned queer male musician, illustrates with an example during an interview with me:

Of note here is how Mark instantaneously embodied feminine musicking gestures (in brackets above) while explaining the femininity of the jakhee. Mark's account is significant as an example of how the display of the queer erotics is inseparable from gender expression. At the same time, his illustration does not point toward greater acceptance of cross-genderism or non-normative performances in the classical performing arts. Rather, it reveals the fleeting queer space and moments where tolerance toward non-normativity is increased. Let us not forget, however, that the increased tolerance enabled on stage does not carry over to the social life off stage. With the tolerated-but-not-accepted attitude toward non-heteronormative identities (Jackson Reference Jackson2016: 97) and the hostile reactions toward explicit displays of non-normativity (Käng Reference Käng2012), these musicians face double pressure to conform. In addition to navigating their gender nonconformity while musicking, queer male musicians must also curate their gender practices under the institutionalised, heteronormative gaze of Thai classical performing arts. This double-sided interplay between queerness and normativity in Thai classical music forms the point of entry for my discussion of “keeping condition”.

Situating Queerness

I first developed an academic interest in the musical and social life of queer male Thai classical musicians in 2019, when I realised that queer male string musicians are a common sight but never a topic of serious conversation. This curiosity was indeed recent, but my familiarity with queer male musicians was not. As a straight, cisgender male trained in Thai classical music, queer male musicians are a part of my musical upbringing. I started learning Thai classical music from my father when I was eight years old. Since my father was a Thai classical music professor at a university in Bangkok, most of my music lessons took place in his department where my father would also introduce me to his undergraduate students, including queer men. Many of these students went on to become established music teachers. A decade later, I was a Thai classical music major undergraduate student and spent five years in my father's department. During this time, I met several queer male musicians whom I called friends. These friends introduced me to the string tradition and shared some inside gossip and rumours that spread within the circle. These musicians and those with whom I acquainted as a child later became my interlocutors for my research project. As such, my relationship with the musical tradition and musicians in question is one in which I am a practitioner.

Despite being a Thai classical music practitioner, I am also somewhat of an “outsider” to this tradition at some moments due to my positionality. Musically, my training is primarily in the piiphaat tradition and is mostly in academic settings. That is, it mostly took place in the music department at a university, my father's workplace. I do not claim to be an expert in any string instruments, but I musicked regularly with queer male string musicians during my fieldwork between 2020 and 2021 by playing rhythmic instruments such as drums and hand cymbals or ching. Additionally, I occasionally took informal music lessons on string instruments with my interlocutors. These activities proved vital to my fieldwork not because of the esoteric aspect of musical performances but because of the transformative effects of musicking that blurred the insider-outsider distinction (Rice Reference Rice, Barz and Cooley2008) and revealed gender cues that would not have been possible otherwise. I equally emphasised the everyday life of queer male musicians outside of the musical stage, which included interviews, participating in rehearsals, driving, and hanging out. The ethnographic readings that I present in this article are grounded in the lived experiences of queer male musicians off stage, but as will become clear later, the on-off stage distinction is, too, not that clear-cut.

Performing research about gender and sexuality among queer male Thai classical musicians is bound to raise some eyebrows, particularly when it is carried out by a straight, cisgender man like me. Fortunately, my connection with queer male Thai classical musicians helped alleviate any suspicion and scepticism among my interlocutors. However, not all queer male musicians were willing to discuss their gender and sexual identities in front of me, who checks all the normative boxes. The accounts and interpretations that follow do not in any way reflect the views of all queer male musicians in Thai classical music. The ethnographic experiences I present are thus only partial (Clifford Reference Clifford, Clifford and Marcus1986) and not representative of all queer male Thai classical musicians.

I have so far been using the term “queer” quite generously in denoting feminine men musicians in the Thai classical string tradition. However, my use of the term is intentional and specific in its meaning and implications, and it is imperative that I clarify my approach in this regard to avoid any ‘problems relating to “queer” [that] result from unanalyzed slippages between emic and etic usages’ (Boellstorff Reference Boellstorff2007: 21). This means that, on the one hand, queer studies as a conceptual tool have undoubtedly shaped my thinking by providing a lens to critique the normalising discourses with an emphasis on resistance and transformation (Boellstorff Reference Boellstorff2007: 21). On the other hand, as a theoretical framework, queer studies is “most useful in its ability to reference an analytical perspective that explores the ways in which heteronormativity is challenged and subverted” (Sinnott Reference Sinnott2012: 472) and to shed light on genders and sexuality deemed non-normative by such discourse.

Despite the utility of queer studies’ conceptual framework, queer as an identity marker does not map neatly onto the Thai genderscape because the relationship between sex, gender and sexuality is understood quite differently in Thai culture. The Thai language does not distinguish between sex, gender, and sexuality, all of which are subsumed in the umbrella word pheet. Non-normative genders, such as kathoey, are usually lumped into the “third gender” or pheet thii saam category and their sexual practices are described in a negative light, for example, phit pheet (wrongly sexed), biangbeen thaang pheet (sexually deviant) or rak ruam pheet (same-sex love). Despite the increased awareness in gender and sexuality studies in Thailand since 2007 that has seen the non-exclusionary Thai terms for gender (pheet phaawa), sexuality (pheet withii), same-sex relationships (rak pheet diaw kan) and “alternative genders” (pheet thaang lueak) (Narupon Reference Narupon, Duangwises and Jackson2013: 42), everyday conversations are still rooted in the traditional three-gender concept that portrays both gender-nonconformity and homosexuality in a negative light.

According to Rosalind Morris, the Thai system of sexual identities is based on the “system of three” logic, consisting of phuuying (female), phuuchaai (male) and kathoey (transvestite/transsexual/hermaphrodite), in which sexual and gender identity is conceived as a repertoire of public appearances independent of the sexual practices within the private realm (Morris Reference Morris1994: 19–20). Peter Jackson also notes that the “[s]exuality conceived in Foucauldian terms has no history in Thailand, remaining discursively bound to gender” (Jackson Reference Jackson2000: 417) meaning that sexual orientations are considered part of the “categories” of eroticised genders. Even as the concept of hetero-/homosexuality was introduced into Thai understanding, kathoey was not replaced. Rather, identities such as gay and lesbian are given localised meanings as a shade of masculinity and femininity with homoerotic desires, a hybrid form of gender and sexual identities (Narupon Reference Narupon, Duangwises and Jackson2013). The kathoey identity may be comparable to that of transgender women but it can also include that of feminine men on some occasions and be very specific on others.

It appears there is no consensus on how queer male musicians identify themselves. Some of my queer male interlocutors would use a catch-all term kathoey to refer to both feminine men and transgender women. Some would use the term tut or sissies to differentiate feminine men from the kathoey population. Some voiced strong opposition to the kathoey and tut labels due to their derogatory connotations. They either turned to LGBT as a more “modern” term to describe their gender nonconformity or adopted the gay identity, a gender-normative homosexual man, to maintain a gender-conforming public persona. Again, it is just as problematic to use gay as an umbrella term because, in Thailand, “gay” is given a localised meaning as gender-conforming men who date men.Footnote ²

In addition to what my interlocutors self-identified with, I also paid special attention to how they did so. For example, when someone identifies with a gendered identity in Thai, they will say, “chan pen phuuying (I am a woman)” or “chan pen phuuchaai (I am a man)” or “chan pen kathoey (I am kathoey)”. While the first two statements are common, the third is almost never said explicitly in everyday circumstances, and the same applies to other non-normative labels. Many of my interlocutors chose to identify themselves indirectly by just saying “…am like this (pen baep nii)”, or just simply “am (pen)” without explaining any further. These indirect, open-ended responses were the answer. They needed no further explanation, and I took this cue respectfully.

The beauty and mystery of the open-ended, indirect responses of my interlocutors about their identities encapsulate queer social formation, affect, and the world. By saying pen, queer male musicians refuse to be pinned down into categories and ask to be left inconspicuous, and the discursive effect of saying pen informs my use of queer. Queer male musicians do not necessarily refer to those who refuse to conform to the heteronormative “boxes”, but rather those whose nonconforming gender performances in social and musical interaction place them in a marginalised position as being “sexually deviant”. I understand that “queer” is rarely embraced as an identity marker among the Thai kathoey and “gay” male populations, nor is the term interchangeable with any of the local understandings of sexual/gendered constructs. However, the term queer allows for the sidestepping of any fixed gendered sexualities of my interlocutors—just like how they described themselves simply as pen. Instead, I want to reflect and reassert the fluidity of my interlocutor's identities, creating “a location of radical openness and possibility” (Doty Reference Doty1993: 12).

Having laid out the frameworks and some necessary contexts, I now turn to their methods of “keeping condition” by first examining the subtle strategies in which queer male musicians control and negotiate queerness on stage before considering the stakes when such negotiation translates to their off-stage social lives.

Saao Mai Group, “Keeping Condition” and Gentleperson

On the first weekend of February, the Thai and Asian Music Department of Srinakharinwirot University, my alma mater, holds an annual waikhruu or teacher honouring ritual. In 2023, the date fell between the 4^th and 5^th of February. The main event, waikhruu, usually takes place on Sunday, but Saturday is equally eventful as current students and alumni gather to help prepare the venue. The Saturday night, known as khuen suk dip (literally the “cooked-and-raw” night), is when the students, along with some outside guests, take turns to perform in a rather relaxed, informal environment. Saturday is somewhat considered a casual homecoming. This year, I attended the event on both days as it was special for a few reasons: It was the first public waikhruu after a two-year hiatus due to COVID-19 and it was the first time the waikhruu was held in a department building because the university's auditorium—their usual venue—was closed for renovation. Most importantly, it was my return to the waikhruu after six years of graduate school in the US.

In the past seven to eight years, there has been a continuing tradition in which a group of queer male students and alumni come together to perform a closing piece on the string ensemble for the informal “concert” on the Saturday night. This year was no different. The group of musicians responsible for the closing performance collectively call themselves saao mai, a phrase that means “weaving silk” and works as an interrogative pun meaning “Are you girlish?” I asked around my queer male friends about this performance and learned that the group was missing a drummer. I offered my service to my friend Ton, an accomplished fiddle player who was the main decision-maker of this year's saao mai group. Ton accepted my offer, and for the first time, I was included as a part of the saao mai group.Footnote ³

If the name saao mai is a rhetorical question about one's femininity, the rehearsal of the group is an affirmative answer. About twenty queer male musicians along with their preferred string instruments were present, including me. We practised in the department's study room, located ten floors above the waikhruu venue. The room could barely hold all of us, and we spent about an hour and a half rehearsing. The rehearsal itself was intermittent, and only about half of the time was dedicated to fine-tuning and polishing the performance. In the other half of the time, the members were catching up, cracking jokes, and making fun of one another as they struggled to keep up with the speed of the musical piece. Playful curses were flying about as members made minor mistakes throughout. We managed to rehearse twice with a lengthy, noisy break between rehearsals. Labelle, another member of the group, aptly described the situation of the room to be “like an agitated hornet nest” (taek taen). As I mentioned, it was indeed informal.

What was striking in this intimate rehearsal space was the free-flowing over-the-top display of queerness. None of the feminine members held back their feminine gender expressions. Their speech tone and bodily comportment were obviously girlish (auk saao) and little to no efforts were made to hide it. Of course, not all their feminine members were equally over-the-top, but there was undoubtedly a sense of relaxation from having to “keep condition”, particularly for the feminine queer male musicians. In a low-stakes, private setting like this, the heteronormative gaze was lifted, and there surfaced a fleeting queer musical space. Let us not forget that this was not a common scene in Thai classical music performances. However, this fleeing queer musical space was only ephemeral as the musicians would codeswitch to “keeping condition” and assume dramatically subdued musicking postures on stage.

It was about half past ten when our turn to perform the closing piece of the night arrived. We moved quickly and spread ourselves across the two-tier raised platform. I was sitting in the middle of the upper platform, holding a large klaung khaek drum between my arms. As we were settled in our position, Opor, one of the vocalists, took the microphone and started an impromptu MC. He went from left to right of the stage, giving a brief “history” or saao mai and introducing each member. He seemed relaxed with his feminine comportment, and so were the others. The introduction was followed by a cue where all musicians simultaneously produced a small flower and tucked it behind each of their left ears. I was told later that this unusual antic is saao mai's trademark move since tucking a flower was a feminine adornment (see figure 4). The gesture's uncanny effect may have drawn heavy laughter from the audience, most of whom were straight, but it was unmistakably a bold display of queerness. However, as we began our performance, signs of an obvious display of queerness—in this case, femininity—almost completely disappeared. Unlike the rehearsals, all members of saao mai, for seventeen minutes, assumed the carefully curated musicking bodies. Traces of femininity were observable among some queer male musicians, but they were never over-the-top. They surely kept their condition well.

Figure 4.

Members of saao mai group, each with a red flower tucked behind the left ear, appear composed during a performance on the eve of waikhruu ritual at Srinakharinwirot University, Bangkok in February 2023. Photo courtesy of Sahapop Phoomphuang.

Literally, “keeping condition” or kep aakaan in Thai means to withhold one's obvious display of emotional expressions, such as happiness, sadness, or anger. “Keeping condition” does not mean that an individual appears entirely emotionless but rather a controlled channelling of one's gendered affect so that it does not appear to be over-the-top when displayed. Some examples are abstaining from jumping under elation, speaking softly despite being furious and avoiding shedding tears when sad. “Keeping condition” also includes controlling mundane gestures like how to walk, speak, sit, prostrate, socialise etc.

As an affective and bodily conditioning, “keeping condition” is crucial in shaping the performance of a good manner, which in turn serves as an important indicator of one's manners and “civility” or siwilai. Those embodying refined manners and appropriate conduct, as a result of controlled emotional expressions, are considered gentlepersons or phuudii (Jory Reference Jory2021: 15), whereas those whose bodily gestures are abrupt and exhibit no sign of self-control are regarded as uneducated and vulgar. It follows that phuudii, while not a marker of class itself, often refers to aristocrats and royal family members, all of whom embody “civility” since they have access to the knowledge of manners. They know where, when to keep condition and with whom; since Thai classical music, like other Thai classical performing arts, was once a palace-centric expressive culture, its performance practices and conventions are based on the presentation of controlled, finely tuned bodily gestures that are characteristic of phuudii.

Phuudii's code of normative behaviour goes well beyond bodily and affective conditions to include controlling one's expression of desires, gender performances and sexual practices. Several practices in Thai classical music echo this gendered aspect of “keeping condition”, especially in the string music ensemble. The tucked-in seating postures and minimal yet graceful bodily movements, combined with the soft and slow melody, reflect softness and submissiveness, an idealised trait of femininity according to the Thai authority.

I wish to treat the concept of “keeping condition”, particularly in musical performances, as more than just old-fashioned notions of desirable social etiquette but instead as “binding, state-sanctioned codes of normative behaviour” (Jory Reference Jory2021: 8, emphasis mine). A musician is expected, for example, to appear calm throughout a performance and minimise any overt facial expressions or bodily movement in formal contexts. Although there is no dedicated lesson about bodily discipline in Thai classical music teaching, musicians are aware of its significant impact on the efficacy of their musical knowledge and performance (Hemarat Reference Hemhongsa1998: 90; Narongchai Reference Narongchai2015). Just as refined manners make for a gentleperson, “keeping condition” presents a neat and tidy (riaprauy) musical performance, visually and aurally. On the contrary, musicians who fail to keep condition are considered as rough, in need of behavioural polishing. Despite their awareness of the rather relaxed performance context, the queer male musicians in the saao mai group were quick to assume “keeping condition” as soon as the performance started. They knew that an explicit display of femininity, being girlish or auk saao, would be comfortably tolerated at that moment, but such a display would not only make themselves look “untidy” (mai riaprauy) but also immediately invoke the stereotypes of kathoey's exaggerated disposition.

When queer male musicians perform in the string ensemble, they incur a dissonance between their gendered musicking bodies and the ensemble's assigned gender role. The feminine gestures articulated by these musicians, while aligning with the string ensemble's femaleness, conflict with their male-gendered bodies. This dissonance unsettles the integrity of the gender-sex alignment of normative behaviour and consequently creates a queer space illegible through the heteronormative gaze. “Keeping condition” is thus needed to mitigate this incongruity to keep the gender dissonance under the threshold, such that the femininity is articulated just enough to fulfil the string ensemble's expected gender roles but does not compromise the musician's masculinity. This then begs the question: why is “keeping condition” needed? Why does it matter?

“Keeping condition” matters because queer performances in Thai classical music are implicated with the weights of morality and citizenship. Let us not forget that Thai classical music is a tradition rooted in top-down conservative royal nationalism, the ideology that has dominated Thai historical scholarship (Winichakul Reference Winichakul2008). Echoing Tes Slominski's remark on the consequence of ethnic nationalism on Irish traditional music, royal nationalism similarly exerts a profound effect in the reproduction of “appropriate” citizens who maintain social orders and uphold “correct” sexual behaviours among other things (Slominski Reference Slominski2020: 26). Thai classical music practitioners are perceived among Thais as the preservers of the national heritage and since most Thai classical musicians are teachers and professors, they are expected to set a good example for their students, including appropriate gender expression. Showing obvious signs of femininity could associate these musicians with the kathoey label, a doubly “uncivilised” identity that is both unrefined and non-normative (Jory Reference Jory2021: 8–13). Kathoey's overboard femininity not only poses a threat to the modern Thai gender regime but also embodies incivility in terms of Thai manners. Queer male musician's gender nonconformity is held in check by the heteronormative moral standards and these standards legitimise their social status as musicians and as “civilised” Thai citizens.

The intersection between musical performances, morality and citizenship means that queer male Thai classical musicians’ performances resist a wholesale comparison with other Thai queer expressive cultures, especially dances. For example, Wonder Gay, a queer Thai K-Pop cover-dance group capitalised on K-Pop's global popularity and the Trans-Asian media flow to refashion performances of femininity by Thai queer men as a kind of modern Asianness (Käng Reference Käng2014: 568). However, this level of open queerness in cover dances and by extension cabaret, which challenges the appropriate expression of masculinity in Thai society, cannot be replicated as explicitly in the Thai classical performing arts as it poses a direct threat to the notions of cultural purity baked into the latter. Queer male musicians’ performances constantly move between gender nonconformity and hegemonic heteronormativity and with morality and citizenship at stake, this balancing act goes well beyond the stage to their social life.

“Keeping Condition” Offstage

A queer male teacher/musician Jack worked at a state-funded Thai performing arts conservatory. In his late 40s at the time of my fieldwork, Jack was serving as the Deputy Director of Student Affairs, responsible for overseeing administrative tasks, mostly student disciplinary actions. To be clear, Jack held a high position in the hierarchy of his organisation. Jack was wearing a male government official uniform that day: a khaki-coloured shirt and trousers with royal regalia on his shoulders and chest (see figure 5). He also used khrap, an ending particle for a male speaker, in my conversation with him. Despite all these masculine indicators, it was not difficult for me to discern Jack's femininity. His bodily comportment—how he moved his arms and hands during the conversation—and his tendency to elongate words were the main telltale signs. Yet, Jack's femininity was not over-the-top. It was so curated that Jack's feminine comportment looked more like a slippage from normative masculinity than a natural disposition (Decena Reference Decena2011: 149).

Figure 5.

Jack and I had a photo together after an interview with him at his workplace in September 2020. Note Jack's khaki-coloured uniform and his DFA gown behind him.

Jack plays the jakhee as his major instrument and went through many disputes over his nonconforming gender expression during his student days. Despite his struggle, Jack was adamant that Thai classical music, like other classical performing arts, has long been LGBT-friendly. For Jack, the increasing awareness of gender diversity meant that more LGBT Thai classical music students could display gender nonconformity openly while being in a government-funded, conservative institution. Jack stated that when LGBT students had an idea for a performance, they would frequently seek his approval, which he mostly supported. His only condition is that, in his own words, “If you [the students] think that this has a chance to become a shitshow, just don't do it” (Interview with Jack 2020). Jack did not explain what he meant by “shitshow”, but I would assume that he referred to something embarrassing that could worsen the already negative attitude toward LGBT students. This reaffirms the tolerated-but-not-accepted status of the third gender or the LGBT communities in today's Thailand.

Jack's observation about the openness of Thai classical performing arts towards gender diversity is quite ironic because the presence of LGBT classical performers is rarely acknowledged officially. Also notable was Jack's ambiguous self-identification. His frequent indirect reference to gender nonconformity through the word pen stood out to me throughout our conversation. Using pen allowed Jack to avoid having his gender nonconformity pinned down as either kathoey, “gay”, LGBT or even avoid being categorised at all. However, this open-ended self-identification also implied queer male musicians’ internalised negative perceptions of kathoey identities and tendency to distance themselves from it. In fact, the use of pen and “keeping condition” were mutually complementary and this relationship went beyond Jack's word choice and could be sharply felt in terms of his reserved bodily expression.

It can be argued that Jack did not restrain his femininity during my conversation because he and I had known each other for over twenty years; the need for him to “keep condition” in such a private and acquainted setting was minimal. However, when Jack made a public appearance, particularly in the conservatory, the pressure to “keep condition” rose sharply as the heteronormative gaze was upon him. Jack whispered to me that when he received his doctoral degree and started working in an administrative position, he had to “keep condition”, especially during ceremonies and social events. Although his gender and sexual identity are no secret to his students and colleagues at the conservatory, he had to do his best to minimise his femininity and look as “normatively” manly as possible, but when he met his students privately in his own office, including the conversation with me, he could relax the condition-keeping and let his femininity show as appropriate. The kaala-theesa contextual sensitivities thus determined whether and how much Jack should keep his condition and remain composed.

Those familiar with Southeast Asian LGBT and queer culture might not find Jack's strategy of “keeping condition” so groundbreaking. My point is not so much about the strategy as it is about how it reveals an instance in which queerness reinforces heteronormativity. Similar to queer musicking bodies on stage, at stake in Jack's “keeping condition” is his public social prestige, especially when gender nonconformity—not homosexuality—becomes much more precarious as one gains upward social mobility. “Keeping condition”, loaded with the acute heteronormative pressure to conform, allowed Jack to distance himself from the kathoey label and achieve the gentleperson or phuudii status.

Ethnomusicologists too have theorised the management of queer potential in the face of a heteropatriarchal expressive culture and with moral values at stake. Alisha Lola Jones (Reference Jones2020: 59, 84) notes similar pressures faced by the countertenor in Black gospel performances. As a male vocal range that overlaps with that of a female, countertenor challenges the expectations of how gendered bodies make sound. Once detected, the display of queer potential is proof that a performer is “spiritually afflicted” by homosexuality and must be “delivered from it”. As a result, queer Black male countertenor performers must consciously maintain a gesture of ideal masculinity as a necessary device to be viewed as a competent and appropriate minister. In a sense, “keeping condition” is a strategy to minimise the display of queer potential and mitigate social sanctions based on national morality in the case of Thai classical music and spiritual morality in Black gospel performance. According to Jack's account, “keeping condition” does not refer to the fixity of queer identity formation. It is rather a negotiated strategy that renders queerness into ephemeral traces (Muñoz Reference Muñoz2009: 81), allowing it to be lost in the logic of heteronormativity and waiting to surface in the appropriate place and time.

The Limits of “Keeping Condition”

As younger queer male musicians increasingly embrace LGBT as an identifiable positionality, they develop a stronger sensibility toward hetero- and homosexuality. However, the encounter between old and new discourses in Thai gender culture can be described as a palimpsest (Van Esterik Reference Van Esterik2020). That is, Thai gender culture is a complex palimpsest in which newer discourses are written on top of older ones, which, in turn, have not been fully erased (Jackson Reference Jackson2020: 26). This sometimes proves confusing for some senior queer male musicians. Mark, a seasoned fiddle player who openly acknowledged his gender nonconformity (see figure 6), admitted to me during an interview that he sometimes had difficulty making sense of his students’ gender identities. Mark mentioned one of his male students who appeared to be a “normal” man and showed no sign of femininity. When this student was in a relationship, he once brought his male partner along to a music lesson and exhibited noticeably feminine comportment. Soon after, the same student had another relationship, but this time he appeared to be highly masculine in the presence of his new partner. Mark observed that gender identities today are too diverse to be categorised as “left” or “right”.

Figure 6.

Mark (left) gives a sau uu lesson to me (right) during an interview in May 2021. Screenshot of a video recorded by the author.

Notable in Mark's confusion is his reference to the localised meanings assigned to the gay identity. According to Peter Jackson, Thai “gay” identity claims to be recognised as a form of masculinity, placing homoerotic relations at the centre of one's sexual and social life (Jackson Reference Jackson, Leap and Boellstorff2004: 181). For many younger queer male musicians, “gay” is considered more desirable than kathoey because it eschews the over-the-top femininity of the latter and resituates queer male into the tolerated spectrum of masculinity. As a shade of masculinity, being “gay” does not threaten to upend the heteronormative constructs underlying Thai classical music. I have met a few “gay” Thai classical musicians who were strongly against the kathoey label, even though they were equally reluctant to identify themselves as “gay”. This is because embodying the kathoey label is regarded as an “uncivilised” mannerism. Becoming “gay” is different from “keeping condition”. It means the removal of the nonconforming condition altogether, albeit temporarily, making obvious displays of queer potential “undetectable” and thus causing confusion even among queer musicians.

My point is not to polarise the local concept of kathoey as “premodern” and the Western gay as some kind of inevitable destination. Rather, I aim to challenge the idea that a kathoey's desire to become “gay” is a sign of upward mobility (although many still hold this belief). The pressures discussed above mean that queer male Thai classical musicians must carefully navigate their gender expression to avoid the accusation of being kathoey. One misstep can lead to an irreversible outcome for their social status and could immediately spell the difference between national pride and shame. However, according to ethnomusicologist Christi Anne-Castro, whether “queerness hides or is simply waiting for recognition may be for the observer or reader to decide, but there are occasions for obvious display” (Castro Reference Castro, Barz and Cheng2020: 107). I am particularly interested in the interplay between queerness and heteronormativity. If these musicians do not—or rather are not allowed to—connect with modern Asianness but instead are tied to the undesirable values of being kathoey, they must find a way to assimilate, at least obliquely, to the very gender and sexual norms of which they are a part.

Concluding Remarks: Queering or Unqueering?

From “keeping condition” to embracing the localised “gay” identity described above, queer male Thai classical musicians present a confounding example of what is/is not queer, at least from the Western perspective. Rather than openly disavowing the heteronormative constraints of the musical tradition, these musicians “articulate quite comfortably with the dominant values of the societies that fostered them, and often serve as conservative, rather than transgressive purposes” (Spiller Reference Spiller, Maus, Whiteley, Nyong'o and Sherinian2022: 822). This begs the question of whether “keeping condition” is queering or unqueering Thai classical music. To answer this question, I argue that “keeping condition” is an insight into queerness in the sense that it is not considered normative by the standard conventions of Thai classical music. But because of the complicities in which queerness and (hetero)normativity work in tandem, it is tempting to write off “keeping condition” as simply an archetype of traditional values, a failure to come out, a defeat in the closet.

However, let us not forget David Halperin's (Reference Halperin1995: 66) remark that states:

Queer male musicians in the string ensemble are doing just that. The so-called new cultural form of queer musicking bodies may not suggest a clean break from the dominant cultures, but it demonstrates the survivability, if not thriving, of non-normative musicians when their morality and citizenship are always under scrutiny. Their social life demonstrates that “the oppositions between complicity and critique, and between conformity and dissidence, cannot fully account for the complexities of queer erotics and aesthetic expression within the Thai context” (Nguyen Reference Nguyen2018: 142).

“Keeping condition” and investment in normative masculinity by queer male Thai classical musicians, be it through kathoey or LGBT discourses, demonstrate the unique agency and resilience of Thai queer politics that focus on hard issues, albeit implicitly, yet portray it softly (Chachavalpongpun Reference Chachavalpongpun2020: 169). At the same time, its oblique identification with queerness and heteronormativity, with morality and citizenship at stake, inevitably constrain—not closet—the extent and degree of queerness, a complex intersection that underpins the limited freedom of queer activism in Southeast Asia (Rydstrom, Nguyễn, and Hoàng Reference Rydstrom, Nguyễn, Hoàng, Hansson and Weiss2023; Yue and Zubillaga-Pow Reference Yue and Zubillaga-Pow2012; Yu Reference Yu2022). The narratives I have presented here do not represent the entire gamut of queer musicians in Thailand—queer male piiphaat musicians and queer female musicians are the two outliers—nor are they translatable to other queer performers in Thai performing arts. However, just as queer ritual specialists display a profound intersection with the market and media (Jackson Reference Jackson, Jackson and Baumann2022: 225), I wish to use their lived experiences to challenge the binary opposition between pre-modern classical performing arts and modern queer popular expressive cultures. “Keeping condition” serves as an example of a critical scholarly approach that attends to intersectional power relations underpinning Thai classical music. Queer male Thai classical musicians are never isolated from broader social events. They draw on gender resources and discourses as they see fit to refashion their negotiated identities, sustaining Thai classical music for the past fifty years and in the foreseeable future.